While I'm Waiting

Last night our Women's Ministry Board put on an event at church. Not an ordinary event mind you, but an event indeed. We had a Sleepover. An Anti-Slumber Party. An event of epic grazing at the snack table. I think it was a huge success. We had over 60 women come to start the evening and about 50 must have stayed to not-slumber. Besides not sleeping, we played games, heard an awesome devotional,and prayed together. Some women painted their nails, we enjoyed overall amazing fellowship with other women in the church and we watched the movie Fireproof.

At home we have been "waiting" for news of the paternity test. Wanted to know and not wanting to know. I haven't posted anything about it recently because there just hasn't been anything to say. I have tried to focus on the assurance that my God is an awesome God and that he loves our family beyond my comprehension. No matter what the results, he is not trying to hurt us. I have prayed more about this then I can even begin to tell you. I have tried to make my prayers remain for His will and for the well being of my Grandson, but sometimes it is sooooo hard. I want what I want and that of course goes without saying.

Through all of this, God has shown me what an awesome support system I have through my Sisters in Christ. Last night they told me that they were all praying....all.the.time. and that they were checking my daughter's blog and Facebook faithfully for updates. These amazing women and women like them at churches all over the country have been lifting my grandson, and his mommy and daddy, up in prayer. God knows that this little boy is so important to so many people.

While we were watching the movie Fireproof this song was part of the movie:

While I'm Waiting

John Waller
The Blessing

I’m waiting
I’m waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful
I’m waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
But patiently, I will wait

I will move ahead, bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience

While I’m waiting
I will serve You
While I’m waiting
I will worship
While I’m waiting
I will not faint
I’ll be running the race
Even while I wait

I’m waiting
I’m waiting on You, Lord
And I am peaceful
I’m waiting on You, Lord
Though it’s not easy, no
But faithfully, I will wait
Yes, I will wait

And I will move ahead, bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience

While I’m waiting
I will serve You
While I’m waiting
I will worship
While I’m waiting
I will not faint
I’ll be running the race
Even while I wait


I will move ahead, bold and confident
I'll be taking every step in obedience, yea

While I’m waiting
I will serve You
While I’m waiting
I will worship
While I’m waiting
I will not faint

I will serve You while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting
I will serve You while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting
I will serve You while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting
I will serve You while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting on You, Lord

How amazing is it that we should choose to watch that movie, with this song, with those words, last night, while I'm waiting? God never ceases to give us what we need, when we need it. While I am waiting I will serve Him and I will worship Him and I will love Him.

Thank you to all of you who have been on this journey with me. There are no words to express how much you mean to me and what true support you have been.

What About That Seemed Like A Good Idea?

My Hubby did the strangest thing the other day. As the days have gone by, I still can't begin to imagine what the thought process could have possibly been to have made it seem like a good idea on any level.

(Keep in mind that I have a Golden Retriever who comes in the house and at the time I had my 2.5 year old grandson staying with me who loves to play outside.)

My grandson was outside in the backyard playing. He likes to play with his trucks in the rocks, play in the dog's water, look for lizards under anything that they might possibly hide under and he especially loves to play up on the hill. Our kid's old playhouse is still up there and he loves to go inside and shut the door. Whenever he would go outside we would tell him the same thing which was that he wasn't allowed to play in the dog water. Sometimes he obeyed, but more often he didn't. This particular day I was checking on him every couple of minutes through my bedroom window. He was happily playing on the hill with the dog in tow. The next thing I knew he was coming down the stairs holding his hands out like something was on them. I went to the back door just as he arrived and he was saying Uh-oh over and over again. I saw that his hands, shirt and jeans had white paint on them. With his track record, I just assumed he had gotten into paint somewhere. I cleaned him up and his mommy asked him where he had gotten the paint. He showed us where. Total confusion was the only response I could come up with. I wish I would have thought to have taken a picture of what he was showing us. Up on the hill was a hole filled with white paint. Yep, right where the dog walks and the two year old plays. Annoyed beyond belief, I got a shovel and filled the hole with dirt to cover the paint. I called my husband to try and get an explanation, but only got his voice mail. Needless to say, I left him a rather scathing voice mail wanting to know what on earth he was thinking.

When he returned my call he confirmed what I already knew....he hadn't been thinking at all. He said that he had just a small amount of paint left in the bottom of the can and he thought if he poured it in a hole it would set up and he could just dig it up and throw it away. Say what???? Did you forget that we have a dog and a 2 year old? Do you have any idea how lucky you are that one of them didn't get it on their paws/feet and track it across the carpet? I mean seriously! After a short pause he replied, "Hmmmm....I guess I just never thought about that." Now, for anyone who knows my husband.......how is that response even possible? And the other question I have about this whole thing is......is it even environmentally safe to do what he did? And why is it that the whole time it was happening all I could think of was that I couldn't wait to blog about it?

Please Continue To Pray

If you read my daughter's blog then you know that the, 'you are not the dad.....yes I am the dad,' alledged birth father of my new grandson is still making noise. As of this second he hasn't filed anything formal, but he hasn't gone away yet either.

When we got the news that he was still in the picture I instantly had this verse going through my head over and over:

"For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11

I KNOW that the Holy Spirit laid that verse on my heart for a reason. It doesn't mean that this will turn out the way we want it, but it does mean that HE has plans for Matthew that will prosper him and give him a hope and a future. HE loves this little boy more than we do, so, imagine how fiercely HE will protect him!

The other verse that instantly came to my mind is Matthew 6:27 -

"Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?"

And Matthew 6:34-

"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of it's own."

We will love Matthew each and every day. We will not worry about whether tomorrow will be different. All we have is today.

Continue to pray for us. We really appreciate it.

My New Grandson

My new grandson came home today! He is perfect and he is adorable!



We are enjoying this time to get to know him, not to mention hugging and kissing him.

Please pray for our family as this adoption may end up being contested. We are loving him every moment of every day. We know that this situation is out of our control and trust in the one who is in control. We know that the Lord has a plan for this little boy and his future and in the mean time we will just hug and kiss him a little more.